The Challenge of Change
“But it is a characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things.”
-Henry David Thoreau
“What everybody echoes or in silence passes...” Fitz’s voice was nothing but a constant buzz passing through one ear and out the other. Intro to Economy in Walden couldn’t be more impossible to focus on. My head laid upon the table with my eyes set upon the clock. I watched as the circular timer ticked down, much like my time at Fenn. Senior spring is much like the fine line between man and animal; with one action my life can be turned into chaos. Soon the pile of unfinished homework builds up, and the grades decline; but why should I care? I am now free; free of stress; free of work; free of grades. This is the challenge presented before me: with this newfound freedom will I care and keep my focus, or allow my school-life descend into chaos.
My life moves so fast and everything changes within seconds. Now I have reached a time where life has slowed down, and it is almost alien to me. It feels as though I have reached the ultimate goal of summer, but this is just a false reality. I still have two more months of school where I need to care. I am now in the start of the two months which has been given the label of the “senior slide”. For many of my peers in previous years have fallen victim to the callings of the senior slide; the grades and the respect slides until they reach the edge of the cliff where the slide is turned into a free fall. Thoreau has said, “No way of thinking or doing, however ancient, can be trusted without proof.” The flawed way of thinking in which my peers in the past displayed does not have to be replicated by me. This does not mean I shouldn’t have fun in these next few months; but the fun and freedom I have needs to be in moderation. I believe that everyone experiences a senior slide, it’s wether that slide is graceful or more like boulder tumbling down a hill, destroying all around it. I hope that my slide is graceful, much unlike those previous.
Close your eye’s and imagine a never ending carousel slowly but surely picking up speed, this is the human mind. The car yesterday was slower than the car today, and the phone today has slower cellular than the phone coming out tomorrow. Our mind is always occupied, with school or a job. Thoreau says that men are trapped by their jobs and by their lives, and are afraid to venture off from their normal day:
“Most men, even in this comparatively free country, through mere ignorance and mistake, are so occupied with the factitious cares and superfluously coarse labors of life that its finer fruits cannot be plucked by them”.
This is true, without structure and rules we are given complete freedom. Most people don’t know to do how to handle freedom. People will just run loose, there minds spinning out of control. But if people would learn how to control themselves when getting freedom they will live their best life. This is what I intend to do in these final months at Fenn, live my best life.
It is all about self control and being independent; those who can master these will live their best life. These next two months will be a challenge, especially for someone like me who has trouble focusing normally. Tomorrow the sun will rise and I will face the challenge of the day, the following day the sun will rise slightly different and I will face the challenge of that day.